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My Anthems of Song

There were two songs this year that will forever mark 2018 for me. Each song represents a season.  And each song gently holds feelings, complications, and some soul yearnings. In April 2018, I got some news that ripped me in half.  Sensitive news that affected every aspect of our lives.  News I wasn't prepared for; news I didn't know what to do with; news that would change the course of our lives and marriage and future.  I was at an utter loss with what to do or think or feel or how to act. So I went on a drive. I didn't know where I was going.  I didn't know anything, I just drove.  Calmly, but without purpose, I drove.  Maybe for therapy.  Maybe because I didn't know what else to do.  Maybe because sitting still in our house would not have been good for me. But on this drive, I was held.  In the midst of hopelessness and anguish, I was not alone. Holy moly, how I needed to feel that... to know I was being loved in the depths of ...