Today is good.


Today is a day of celebration, memories, aching, healing, longing, tears, and joy.
The fact that this earth in which we live has been without the presence of Mom for one year is truly astounding.  Earth is missing out, that is for sure!

In this past year, so much change has taken place.  Change through healing, and because of heartache.  Physical changes, lifestyle changes, adjusting, taking crazy leaps of faith.  And Mom has been a part of so much of all this change, too...just from a little bit longer of a distance than I'm used to.
But she's been there.
And OH! -- my, how the Lord has not only been in the midst of these changes alongside Mom, but how He's led the way!  How He has guided the change, revealed His plan little by little, comforted emotions when we stumble about treading through the unknown.  OH, how He has been present in the newness and generous with the His undeniably incredible peace.

Oh, Lord.  You are good.  Today, today -- you are good.  
The past twelve months, you have been so good.  
Your goodness is what we seek -- and your goodness is what we've found.  
We've found it in these recent years of humbly exploring the details of your face 
and tracing your edges, Oh God, with our fingertips...
not worthy enough to even glance in your direction, 
yet confident enough because of your grace to run straight into your embrace.  

I miss Mama dearly.  I miss her laugh and my daily chats with her.  I miss her quirks and her antique shopping.  I know that Daddy misses her pretty eyes.  We all miss her games and ideas and fun-loving spirit.  I miss Mama's ability to meet people where they were and make friends out of strangers.  I miss her over-analyzing :), her sense of adventure, her funny voices, and even more so I miss the way she genuinely cared for other people...the way she made their stories and their struggles her priority.  I miss the way she hugged on kiddos and lived out her faith in every facet of her life.  And, I'm grateful for the intense heartache that this remembering causes.  
Mama, you are dearly missed in a mighty way by many people.  
Yet I hope you have had the BEST year ever!!, being intimate with your majestic Savior 
who stole your heart years before you stole mine.

Lord, 
help us not to forget and help us to heal as we remember.  
But also help us to find You within the remembrance of one of your precious ones.  
That is our desire.  When we search for You, we will find your goodness...and we never want to stop.  Thank you for the events and "mile markers" that You use to spur us on in finding You.





  

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