Thank you
This will really be more of a plethora of thoughts thrown onto a screen, than a well-written thoughtful post.
What is even going on in this head of mine? So often my head and my heart fight each other. One wants what the other can't have; one thinks too much and the other makes an effort not to over-feel; one is timid and one tries too hard.
Sheesh. Maybe I'd be less exhausted if the two would just cooperate.
As it is, currently both the head and the heart are confused. Both are asking lots of questions. Both have struggled, both have been working overtime, both have said "why?". But now my heart is now more deeply invested than my head will ever be. My heart has broken over the past 16 months. It's been torn apart the past 2 weeks. But it's also grown. It's grown closer to His own heart. And it's still growing. I know it'll never stop growing in the direction of my Lord, but the more I know about Him the more I want to shout His name across the rooftops!
For that, I am so extremely grateful.
I have experienced a huge range of emotions lately -- hurt, anger, terror, guilt and joy, goodness, peace. I have praised His name for what He is doing and what He has planned. But something that I never thought would be on my lips has come up...a couple of times before, but in a much stronger dose these days.
Gratitude.
I am grateful for this challenge in my life.
Meh??
I think that praising our God's name, at ANY time, is wonderful. But I've freely given much praise without giving any appreciation. My praise has been a little lop-sided. My praise has been lacking. And I never really realized it...
We are thankful to our Maker in times of plenty and we thank him often for our blessings. That's easy to do. But Max Lucado points out that thankfulness is a consequence of trust.
I think that the more I'm on this journey, the more the Lord calls me to Him, the more my heart grows towards Him and, slowly, the more my gratitude starts to swell. I am thankful to the God of the universe because I trust Him. I appreciate His challenges in my life because I appreciate who He is.
And that becomes a part of my praise.
Things like this change my heart far more than they change my mind. And I don't think my heart can ever go back to how it was before. I know it can't; this is a forever-change.
And I'm glad.
What is even going on in this head of mine? So often my head and my heart fight each other. One wants what the other can't have; one thinks too much and the other makes an effort not to over-feel; one is timid and one tries too hard.
Sheesh. Maybe I'd be less exhausted if the two would just cooperate.
As it is, currently both the head and the heart are confused. Both are asking lots of questions. Both have struggled, both have been working overtime, both have said "why?". But now my heart is now more deeply invested than my head will ever be. My heart has broken over the past 16 months. It's been torn apart the past 2 weeks. But it's also grown. It's grown closer to His own heart. And it's still growing. I know it'll never stop growing in the direction of my Lord, but the more I know about Him the more I want to shout His name across the rooftops!
For that, I am so extremely grateful.
I have experienced a huge range of emotions lately -- hurt, anger, terror, guilt and joy, goodness, peace. I have praised His name for what He is doing and what He has planned. But something that I never thought would be on my lips has come up...a couple of times before, but in a much stronger dose these days.
Gratitude.
I am grateful for this challenge in my life.
Meh??
I think that praising our God's name, at ANY time, is wonderful. But I've freely given much praise without giving any appreciation. My praise has been a little lop-sided. My praise has been lacking. And I never really realized it...
We are thankful to our Maker in times of plenty and we thank him often for our blessings. That's easy to do. But Max Lucado points out that thankfulness is a consequence of trust.
I think that the more I'm on this journey, the more the Lord calls me to Him, the more my heart grows towards Him and, slowly, the more my gratitude starts to swell. I am thankful to the God of the universe because I trust Him. I appreciate His challenges in my life because I appreciate who He is.
And that becomes a part of my praise.
Lord, you are holy and I thank you for continuing to give me a mother to love on.
I am grateful for my story and I am grateful for your grace.
Things like this change my heart far more than they change my mind. And I don't think my heart can ever go back to how it was before. I know it can't; this is a forever-change.
And I'm glad.
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